I have discovered something about myself when I step outside of my comfort zone. I am calling it ‘the-crash-into-the-curb-moment’ and the best way to describe it is: a slowed down feeling of inevitable impact. Let me back up a bit when I was taking lessons to earn my motorcycle license, the first time I had to turn left I suffered from target fixation – also known as don’t star at the curb, because you will hit it. As you guess I was WAY outside my comfort zone on the motorcycle, I felt incredibly vulnerable turning left onto a busy road, and I gave in to my fears, thus the crash into the curb moment. I wasn’t badly hurt, just shook up, the instructor didn’t give me an option, up I got and had to continue with the ride. The tears came when I got home, as I reflected on the crash, but I went on to achieve my license in June 2017.
What has stayed with me, is the moment in time in which I knew I was going to crash, time seemed to slow down and I knew the impact was coming, I just didn’t know the outcome. Over the last few weeks, I have really pushed myself to say yes to a couple of new opportunities. So I have submitted a poem I wrote to a call for poetry, and I have been invited to submit a story to be published within an anthology describing a success experienced. Both times once the writing is over and the submission is pending, I feel the same way before pushing send, a slowing of time and awareness that something will impact me, what I don’t know is will it be positive, or will it be negative.
Regardless of a positive or negative outcome, past experience has taught me that I will learn something new, and establish new boundaries in which to challenge. What are your internal signals that you are pushing beyond your boundaries?
Love your blog posts mum!
Congratulations, Paula. Would love to read you poem so save me a copy of the publication or let me know where to pick one up!
I will send it to you via email. First, attempt at poetry so bar very low.